where did your spine go? / damaris + saturn day 1
Feb 27, 2019 17:03:32 GMT -5
Post by goat on Feb 27, 2019 17:03:32 GMT -5
damaris hope
My hands hit the ground before my knees do. I claw my fingers into the dirt and heave, lower my body as far down to the ground as I can manage. My left hand is broken, I think, and the blood streaming down my face makes me think that my nose is broken as well. The pain in my hand is almost unbearable but I keep pushing it into the dirt because I’m worried if I don’t ground myself, keep myself attached to something physical, I’ll lose my mind. It’ll float right out of my ears and up into the bright, dry sky, following the future paths of the hovercrafts.
There isn’t anything around me that could hide me. I should have run further, into the grass or the field of sunflowers, but this was as far as I think I could make it. My body feels like it’s on the verge of giving out, black blurring around the edges of my vision. If anybody followed me away from the Cornucopia, I’m making myself an easy target for them. They were all too eager to turn their fists and weapons on me as soon as the gong rang out. I need to get up, I can’t let anybody find me in the state I’m in now, collapsed like an exhausted animal. I need to find Saturn.
I push myself up and back onto my knees. So, what do I do now? I could have died in the Bloodbath, but I didn’t, which means I have a little more time to decide what I’m going to do. I know what I should do— I should be brave, press on, keep going no matter what, but that doesn’t seem very interesting, does it? Not what the audience wants to see. They want drama, disaster. They want the same tragedy that befell my cousins to befall me. Maybe I should choose to stay alive just to spite them for as long as I can. I don’t know. I’ve never been one for holding grudges.
I look out over the field, over the cracked earth and the holes in the ground. There must be some kind of burrowing animal around here. Other than that, I think I’m alone. I guess the other tributes didn’t want to come here. Either I made a great decision or a terrible one.
When I go to climb to my feet, I hear heavy footsteps approaching behind me. I stumble and reach for my weapon before realizing I dropped it just out of reach when I fell earlier. The footsteps get closer and there’s no time for me to try to grab it. All I can do is fall back on my elbows, clutch my broken hand to my chest, and hope whoever has found me is benevolent.
[title from dead-bird]
There isn’t anything around me that could hide me. I should have run further, into the grass or the field of sunflowers, but this was as far as I think I could make it. My body feels like it’s on the verge of giving out, black blurring around the edges of my vision. If anybody followed me away from the Cornucopia, I’m making myself an easy target for them. They were all too eager to turn their fists and weapons on me as soon as the gong rang out. I need to get up, I can’t let anybody find me in the state I’m in now, collapsed like an exhausted animal. I need to find Saturn.
I push myself up and back onto my knees. So, what do I do now? I could have died in the Bloodbath, but I didn’t, which means I have a little more time to decide what I’m going to do. I know what I should do— I should be brave, press on, keep going no matter what, but that doesn’t seem very interesting, does it? Not what the audience wants to see. They want drama, disaster. They want the same tragedy that befell my cousins to befall me. Maybe I should choose to stay alive just to spite them for as long as I can. I don’t know. I’ve never been one for holding grudges.
I look out over the field, over the cracked earth and the holes in the ground. There must be some kind of burrowing animal around here. Other than that, I think I’m alone. I guess the other tributes didn’t want to come here. Either I made a great decision or a terrible one.
When I go to climb to my feet, I hear heavy footsteps approaching behind me. I stumble and reach for my weapon before realizing I dropped it just out of reach when I fell earlier. The footsteps get closer and there’s no time for me to try to grab it. All I can do is fall back on my elbows, clutch my broken hand to my chest, and hope whoever has found me is benevolent.
[title from dead-bird]