hang em high [sweetwater saints day 2]
Mar 7, 2019 18:57:08 GMT -5
Post by alex 🐺 on Mar 7, 2019 18:57:08 GMT -5
b e r l i n ;
The boy crawls back to where Hisidro and Diana wait for him - his mangled body torn and bleeding.
They support him, his arms slung over their shoulders as he stumbles between them, only far enough to last a few steps before he has to stop.
They patch him up with the sun high in the sky - Diana escapes to gather medicinal plants, returning with a bouquet. Hisidro builds a splint for his leg and bandages him up with a small smile. The trust is not quite there yet but it is building into something.
He would never tell them this and will no doubt take it to his grave - but he is happy that they’re alive. Zion, well, he hoped the boy found some peace somewhere. Sweat beads down his chest into the darkness of his vest and he is drenched and cold, the blood loss covering him with ice in the arid desert weather.
“We didn’t even kill it, which is the worst fucking part,” Lin breathes, the taste of copper on his lips, his mouth bleeding, his arm bleeding, his legs crumbled beneath him as he falls to the ground once more. His leg regaining some motion, but he feels pathetic. The vultures circling overhead more than an omen.
It feels like it has been years since his body has been his own, and yet it has only been hours since they awoke on day two. He taps fingers that are not his against skin he can hardly feel, watches a chest rise and fall, and wonders if his empty shell would echo if Hisidro hit it hard enough. Perhaps they will find out in due time.
“But maybe we can catch a docile one. Look, just there in the distance - ” Berlin trails off as he hears hoofbeats approaching, flashbacks to this morning playing across his mind like a video on repeat, propping himself up on his pitchfork and watching the horizon, a herd of horses just like the one that tore him to pieces lingering not from where they had erected a small camp. Berlin stands at full height, leg, head, arm, and hand aching. They can patch up his wounds, but his finger is gone, laying in the grass somewhere. The patchwork tourniquet bloody and stained, but he wears it like a uniform. Red like blood, gold like stardust.
The horses seemed gentle enough, and catching one meant quicker movement between sectors. Catching one meant that they had a leg up, nearly on par with the weatlth alliance.
They must think him suicidal, but how can he tell them he has already sold his soul?
How could he tell them that there was once life within him, something made of something more, something made of light and humanity that he ripped out? He spent too much time wishing he could connect his thoughts to his brain, his brain to his spinal cord, and all of it to the slow beat of his heart.
How could he tell them that his sister's scream when she drowned are the only noises that he can remember, the only memories that he carried before he took a scalpel to his chest, carved letters and ink into his body to remake himself into something more?
How could he tell them that he let himself get beat in the training center for years, hard enough to pull the spirit from his lips? Hard enough to make him forget her name even for just mere moments of blackness on the cold mats?
How could he tell them he chased his sister’s ghost for long enough to bring himself to his own knees - battered and broken, wearing his guilt like her death shroud?
How could he tell them that he had to keep running - that he would never stop running? How could he tell them that his scars and tattoos are a testament to the fact that is body and soul are burnt to a crisp? That his body and soul will never forget her? How could he tell them that his body was a ruined temple for a vacant god - smeared in ichor and rusted gold?
He couldn’t tell them anything, so he stays silent, limping towards the horses, his broken leg mending from their care as he pulls the rope from his sack, fashioning a lasso and whistling to Hisidro and Diana behind him. I owe you both, dies on his lips so he just points, letting them know his intentions.
What better way to conquer your demons than to chase them head on?
And hell, even if he failed, he could always use the rope to hang himself.
[berlin tries to wrangle a horsie ]
25gPdpv3Dh1-2
[womp womp]
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[womp womp]