blaine ; district five

blaine ; district five Mar 19, 2019 12:43:28 GMT -5

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Post by Deleted on Mar 19, 2019 12:43:28 GMT -5

blaine !

"A whole damn year? Tell me, why the devil would I do that."

"There's a prize if that helps any."

I have to admit, I don't really know what I want either. Some of us just enjoy the climb, if you can relate to that. It just seems so daunting to really pick one thing, especially when I can just do it all. Stretch myself too thin, all that metaphor -- I really stopped caring about that a long time ago. I just want people to love me, you can write that down.

Is that too broad too?

A lot of people have a relatability factor, and I guess that must be where I differ. I never gave much for traditional interviews, I feel like there's too much pressure on your past. There's no tragedy in mine; nothing interesting, nothing to make me stand out on paper. Is it bad that I hate admitting that? Everybody has something, I used to be a lie over this, mister. But, you know, who hasn't? There's a part of everybody that wants to be special, to be the David everybody roots for, not the Goliath. Eh, I might be a little past that though, hahaha.

It's far more interesting to be the Goliath,

at least, for me it is.

It's just- I can't articulate this part, hmm. People just tend to fill in blanks, you know? How do I start this- okay, so, with the street fights, people get bored with the middle man. There's just no _story line_, they never show any growth, never give a reason for you to bet on them. To care about them. All the pride is on the guy on top, and the guy on bottom. And I have been both in sorts, they love watching David win -- it means anybody can. They see themselves in somebody who's also at square one, and that is nice, isn't it?

But then there's Goliath, the undefeated, but before his whole twenty year reign of terror. When somebody emerges clear of the pack, it is exciting; it's captivating to see somebody completely control a scene like that. It's a whole story in itself without any of the vulnerability, and that is where people like to fill in their own. They want to see Goliath fall at first because it gives a reason to see them as human. And if you last at the top long enough, it gets boring, if you can see where I'm coming from.

I like the pressure. It's an added challenge, having people root against me.

And it's fun winning past that, whenever and wherever, if you understand me better from there.

"Well, that does sweeten the deal some."

So anyways, I wouldn't call myself too much of a sore loser, haha. I love it when my work talks for itself, the others will get the hint. I just, win, and they won't, and that's a satisfying notion for me. So I definitely am more of a "hates-to-lose" than "loves-to-win," and that is something I'm aware of, at the least. I'm normally put together, mister.

I know who I am, and at my age, that's pretty good!

Not to over-estimate my position here, but I can assure you I can offer that much more than the rest of my group. To draw back to what I was saying about the whole "relatability factor," that's my worst thing with interviews; however, I've got some experience that can walk circles around these kids, to be frank. As rewarding as it is to see the underdog pull through, I understand I'm not taking the best approach to this, but that makes it more fun. If you've already given me this much of a chance, I'm sure the things I can pull off going further will uh, will impress you.