sell your soul — nico & raven. [ day 8 ]
Apr 21, 2019 15:00:45 GMT -5
Post by gamemaker tallis 🧚🏽♂️kaitlin. on Apr 21, 2019 15:00:45 GMT -5
Ash to ash, dust to dust
Everything in God above
Shed a tear, shed your blood
Nico had heard the canons all day.
They had rung through the sky like echoing claps of thunder and lightning, more ominous and terrible than both. The sound of death, mixing with the sound of rain. Nico wonders if he will ever again be able to think of one without the other, if they will forever be conjoined in his mind, if he will ever look at another sunflower without remembering both the love that he had lost and the life that he had taken.
He wonder if he will be given the chance.
Nico had not been born hopeful.
He had been born for blood, with a knife in his back and another pressed against his throat, with threats in all directions. He had never know peace, had only ever known ice and fire, and where another person could have met that with relentless determination stemmed from relentless hope, Nico had chosen hunger and anger as his weapons, and in a world that forced him to live in extremes, he chose his path of wild night and abandoned the light.
Now though, Francis's light burns inside of him.
Now he wonders.
Now he hopes.
Because of Francis, because of the promise that he had made to the other, Nico can't help but hope, can't help but wonder—what would his life look like if he got out of here? How was he going to get out? He's not the only tribute left, not by a long shot, knows that there is more death to come, more death to be spilt at his own hand if he is to make it back home. He stares into the sky, watches as Hisidrio's face flashes across the dark clouds, the sneers when it skips from Ronan onto Exover Endor. That means Diana is still alive, he thinks to himself, and finds that he is both angry and glad for it.
But wants her dead.
But he wants to kill her himself.
Jayne and Francis's blood is still all over him, staining the clothes he wears under his armor dark brown. Nico doesn't tremble when he thinks about it, but every so often it makes his spine tingle, reminds him to stand straighter, to be taller, to be better. He is going to go home to Twelve and look Carter Laws in the face, no matter the cost, no matter the consequence—he promised Francis that he would live. He hadn't been prepared to pay the cost of that glory, but he had paid it all the same, and Nico would not dishonor his death.
Fuck you, Nico Thorne.
He hears Jayne's last words over and over, uses them as fodder for the fire burning in his chest, turning everything into ash and decay. Grief burns through him, turning his body into a wasteland of all that Nico had lost, using every moment of pain to push him further and further forwards. His entire life has been built around the idea that he is the hero of this story, that his mother had built him up to rain vengeance and bloodshed down on the man who had taken from her a husband, and when Panem had protected him, his mission had become one of taking back from the nation the iron they had stolen away from him. He turns last words into his lifeblood. Fuck you, Nico Thorne rings in his head, reminding him that even the hero of his own story is the villain in anothers, reminding him that in order to take the crown he must enact the same cruelties on another as have been enacted unto him. You have to tend to your wounds and rein your anger in, he remembers, and it's enough. It has to be. It has to be enough to remind Nico that his weakness is his strength, that his hunger does not need to be feral in order to be powerful, that it must be a tool in his arsenal rather than an uncontrollable inferno.
Memory is a knife in his heart.
He stands tall anyways.
Sitting astride Honey, the silence is deafening. It feels like he can hear everything in the arena, like the entire place is hollow and aching to match the abyss expanding inside of Nico's chest. The place where love once bloomed, the place where anger had learned how to be a weapon and hope had turned itself strong. The air mists at him, and by the time he reaches the edges of the sunflower fields, the chill has sunk deep into his bones.
It tempers the fire in him, but when he sees a girl ahead of him, he wills it back to brightness.
"Five," he calls out, and remembers the first time that he had ever called Francis that in his head, remembers seeing him from across the training center. His scars are his power—they have to be. Rein your anger in.
He will crumple underneath them if they aren't.
"Raven," he amends. Perhaps it's foolhardy to call out to her rather than try to sneak up on her. Perhaps he should have waited until night fell once again, and under another cloudless sky slit her throat in the dark of night. Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.
Perhaps, he is lonely.
"What is it that they call a group of raven's again?" He's close now, close enough to see the expression on her face, to see that she is decorated in just as much armor as Nico himself is. Another would expect a flicker of fear to dance through their chest, but Nico feels only the frightening calm of someone who has taken a life before, of someone who will again if they have to, and Nico does. Fuck you, Nico Thorne. "A murder?" He says it with a lilt to the end of the sentence, edging Honey to circle around her. "Or is it an unkindness." He's almost tongue in cheek, a hollow amusement drifting through him, sardonic in nature.
"Are you who I have to thank for Hisidrio, then?"
He strikes before giving her the chance to answer.You cannot give enough
Finally become second to none
In a kingdom of one
[ nico attacks raven, pitchfork (spear) ]
W5u2_1hXCLspear
[ 3097 -- Miss -- 0.0 damage (Spear) ]
ACCURACY.
[ nico attacks raven, pitchfork (spear) ]
spear
[ 3184 -- Deep Gash on Neck -- 10.0 damage (Spear) + 1 Strength ]
spear·spear