so we can keep things quiet / ryan
May 1, 2019 23:13:54 GMT -5
Post by goat on May 1, 2019 23:13:54 GMT -5
blair noland
Blair rolled his sleeves up to his elbows and stretched toward the sky. The bones in his spine cracked happily, and he let out a noise as he brought his arms back down. The sun was shining down, having finally escaped from behind April clouds, and the warmth on his skin felt nice. It was weird to relax. His hours at work had been cut with no prior warning, a stressful event that had left him crying behind the building before going back home. He was still making enough to cover his mother’s medication, but barely, and rent was going to be due in a couple weeks. He’d thought about asking his father to pick up a few shifts somewhere, but that wasn’t a conversation he wanted to have yet. How unfair, he thought, that all this responsibility had to be piled onto him, but then he decided that he thought about that too much and should think of something else.
He’d gone far from the city center that morning. He needed to be away from the crowds and the smog. It was his first day off in a while, after all. He figured he should make the most of it— take some time for himself, be a little selfish. Nothing terrible would happen if he dared not to think about somebody else for a change.
After an hour or so of wandering, he’d come across a small lake. It was surrounded by tall trees and lined with misshapen rocks. The water was dark, but calm. He sat down on the edge of it and pulled his legs in so they wouldn’t stick out into the water. Now that he was closer, he could see some things underneath the surface— rocks, moss, a few swimming fish. An entire ecosystem existing alone. He wanted to feel envious of them, able to exist without anyone depending on them, but he was too practical to feel jealous of grass in a lake.
At least, he was in theory.
He leaned back on his elbows and closed his eyes, tilting his face up toward the sky. This felt wrong— being alone, having time to wind down and relax. He was worried there would be some sort of punishment after, like he would get home in a couple hours and find his mother sicker, in need of extra medicine that he didn’t have enough money for. When he worried like that, it made him feel like his father.
He shook his head, as if he could physically shake all of his worries out, and tried to focus on the things around him— the soft breeze blowing, the rays of sunshine streaming through the leaves, something that sounded like footsteps in the distance.
[title from rhode island by the front bottoms] [x]
He’d gone far from the city center that morning. He needed to be away from the crowds and the smog. It was his first day off in a while, after all. He figured he should make the most of it— take some time for himself, be a little selfish. Nothing terrible would happen if he dared not to think about somebody else for a change.
After an hour or so of wandering, he’d come across a small lake. It was surrounded by tall trees and lined with misshapen rocks. The water was dark, but calm. He sat down on the edge of it and pulled his legs in so they wouldn’t stick out into the water. Now that he was closer, he could see some things underneath the surface— rocks, moss, a few swimming fish. An entire ecosystem existing alone. He wanted to feel envious of them, able to exist without anyone depending on them, but he was too practical to feel jealous of grass in a lake.
At least, he was in theory.
He leaned back on his elbows and closed his eyes, tilting his face up toward the sky. This felt wrong— being alone, having time to wind down and relax. He was worried there would be some sort of punishment after, like he would get home in a couple hours and find his mother sicker, in need of extra medicine that he didn’t have enough money for. When he worried like that, it made him feel like his father.
He shook his head, as if he could physically shake all of his worries out, and tried to focus on the things around him— the soft breeze blowing, the rays of sunshine streaming through the leaves, something that sounded like footsteps in the distance.
[title from rhode island by the front bottoms] [x]