the birds didn't die in the winter – spencer & bambi
Dec 29, 2019 17:59:27 GMT -5
Post by lucius branwen / 10 — fox on Dec 29, 2019 17:59:27 GMT -5
I wonder where rich boys keep their hearts.
I checked the hem of Spencer’s sleeve when I held his hand – wrote my address into his palm, and found nothing but the moon carved into the marble of his skin. Somewhere, there must be a trick door, a locked treasure chest, a dangerous vault.
There were the flowers, the stars, the fountain bursting with moss. And there he had been at twilight, so soft and shy in the evening light that I couldn’t even kiss him.
I have an appetite for sweet things, for the little lamb that sleeps in the valley of the gods. I wonder where his heart is – if I can coax the ichor from his veins, if he blushes at the thought of sharp teeth, if I can make him love me.
A week ago, I gave him my address, told him to meet me at half past nine, and all he’s gotta do now is show up.
He is such a baby.
I’m scared I’ve scared him already.
Here are the infinite platitudes of romance – butterfly pulse, flushed cheeks, a puffy marshmallow heart. I light a cigarette, try to blow smoke rings in the shape of hearts, remember to feign the gentleness I was always told I lacked by Cassius, and wonder what it'd be like to be rich.
It's almost nine.
"Big dick energy time," I tell myself, "Big dick energy."
I cut a line of coke on a plastic bag, measure just enough so I've got all that when Spencer's here – butterfly pulse, flushed cheeks, heart on the verge of beating out.
Love, it tastes bitter, trickling down my throat.
I smoke another cigarette, lean on the windowsill, watch a light rain turn District Five into mud. The ashes from factory chimneys settle into a monochrome palette, sepia tonalities, mood maker. All that's light are neon signs and the end of my cigarette flickering gold to my breath. Exhaling, take a shot of cherry vodka – I think about kissing Spencer.
I learned how to kiss all those years ago in the Red Room.
My touch is power.
I think about all the secrets he'd spill from those lips.
I checked the hem of Spencer’s sleeve when I held his hand – wrote my address into his palm, and found nothing but the moon carved into the marble of his skin. Somewhere, there must be a trick door, a locked treasure chest, a dangerous vault.
There were the flowers, the stars, the fountain bursting with moss. And there he had been at twilight, so soft and shy in the evening light that I couldn’t even kiss him.
I have an appetite for sweet things, for the little lamb that sleeps in the valley of the gods. I wonder where his heart is – if I can coax the ichor from his veins, if he blushes at the thought of sharp teeth, if I can make him love me.
A week ago, I gave him my address, told him to meet me at half past nine, and all he’s gotta do now is show up.
He is such a baby.
I’m scared I’ve scared him already.
Here are the infinite platitudes of romance – butterfly pulse, flushed cheeks, a puffy marshmallow heart. I light a cigarette, try to blow smoke rings in the shape of hearts, remember to feign the gentleness I was always told I lacked by Cassius, and wonder what it'd be like to be rich.
It's almost nine.
"Big dick energy time," I tell myself, "Big dick energy."
I cut a line of coke on a plastic bag, measure just enough so I've got all that when Spencer's here – butterfly pulse, flushed cheeks, heart on the verge of beating out.
Love, it tastes bitter, trickling down my throat.
I smoke another cigarette, lean on the windowsill, watch a light rain turn District Five into mud. The ashes from factory chimneys settle into a monochrome palette, sepia tonalities, mood maker. All that's light are neon signs and the end of my cigarette flickering gold to my breath. Exhaling, take a shot of cherry vodka – I think about kissing Spencer.
I learned how to kiss all those years ago in the Red Room.
My touch is power.
I think about all the secrets he'd spill from those lips.