Ordo Tethras D1 CB[done]
Apr 13, 2020 18:35:33 GMT -5
Post by Cato on Apr 13, 2020 18:35:33 GMT -5
I've always enjoyed the life of a career. I train constantly. Every single day I step foot into the academy doing what I can and woking on becoming stronger and better. Every time I mess up, I'm quick to get it back together because I don't want anyone to see that I have failed. I try and try again, and I want to have a name that everyone fears. I've been laughed at for tiny mistakes, and I am working to prove everyone wrong. My parents want what's best for me, and if I spend a minute too long at home, they scream at me telling me I need to work harder so I don't let them down. Even when I'm sweating and panting from all the hard work, I keep going, but in reality, I'm probably setting myself up to fail.
I want to feel acceptance and have friends constantly standing by my side because it's what I need. I have this one really close friend. We've been friends for a while, and I trust him with my life. I have no reason not to trust him, but I want him to always be around me. Any time I see him talking to someone else, I feel like they're talking about me behind my back. Or when I'm walking by, and I see a group of people standing together, and I'm all by myself, I can't help but listen for the whispers because I need to know that I'm not the person they're discussing. My friends tell me all the time that I'm overly paranoid, and that I need to stay to myself and mind my own business. Sometimes I can, but other times it captures my attention, and I don't know how to walk away.
