people who pity me | zori
Jul 1, 2020 20:14:40 GMT -5
Post by goat on Jul 1, 2020 20:14:40 GMT -5
It’s hard to be outside. Birdie has barely gone past her yard in weeks— it feels like an invisible barrier has been placed at the edges, making her hands shake and her throat close at the idea of straying away from safety. The only time she left was to get her stitches removed at the hospital. She had watched the doctor pull out every thread and tried not to imagine the wound reopening. The cool, clinical walls made her feel like she was strapped back in the emergency room bed, like she couldn’t breathe, like she was going through it all over again. Walking alone in the sunshine feels better than that, at least.
She’d forced herself into real clothes and pushed past the line where the grass met the sidewalk because she owes a phone call to a friend, and Pierre’s the only person she knows with a phone that could place a call to another district. Her arms are covered with a thin silk shawl, the flower pattern hiding her scars and the fabric sheer enough to not make her overheat, but she still feels like everyone’s eyes are on her, staring her down like they know what she’s done. It’s self-centered to think this way, she knows this. She knows that the entire world isn’t obsessed with her. It’s hard to think she isn’t being silently criticized for everything when that’s the way she grew up. Even her family’s unspoken thoughts were deafening.
The summer sun fades into shade as she ascends the steps of the justice building. She welcomes the rush of air conditioning, a luxury she wishes she could afford in her own home, and follows the signs to the mayor’s office. There are a few people hustling around the building— interns, Keepers— but nobody who would stop and bother her. She is the mayor’s sister, technically, but they’ve been estranged long before he took office. It’s probably easier for the average Eight citizen to recognize their mother than her.
The thought sends a chill down her spine. She can think of no one less deserving of public notoriety than her mother.
She’s let into Pierre’s office and nestles herself into a big chair in the corner of the room with the phone in her hand. The cushions are soft, and she makes a satisfied noise as she sinks into them. She unfurls the scrap of paper with the phone number on it and punches it into the dial pad. As the line begins to ring, there’s a fluttering in her stomach. A reminder of the strange little human she’s supposed to be taking care of.
She smiles to herself, softly.
The line rings, and rings, and then there’s a click on the other side.
“Vasco?” She presses the phone closer. “It’s Birdie. I have so much to tell you.”