raise them for the slaughter . elegant
Feb 7, 2021 20:39:07 GMT -5
Post by cass on Feb 7, 2021 20:39:07 GMT -5
o p a l .
"Happiness, hit her like a train on a track
Coming towards her, stuck still no turning back
She hid around corners and she hid under beds
She killed it with kisses and from it she fled
With every bubble she sank with a drink"
The sun had already begun to set, bowing its head below the skyline and throwing the training centre into darkness. Opal preferred it that way, watching as the long shadows stretched around her, and ignoring the light switches that often beckoned the children she trained like moths to a flame. She’d ended their training session an hour early today, done with their rude comments and their boredom that was bleeding into their inaction.
After the fourth one had landed with a painful grunt on the floor, she had waved them away, unable to keep a flicker of annoyance out of her voice as she told them to leave. It was rare that she was rewarded with a few downward looks of shame or anger, and she found it almost satisfying that she might inflict the same emotions on them as they did to her.
Ky was wrapping up his own session, and Opal watched for a moment, hand resting on her pommel as she leaned against the wall. The air was a little humid, unpleasant against the sheen of sweat that covered her face. He was good at teaching, soft but powerful and Opal was often impressed with the way the kids seemed to listen to him without question. He held an air of authority that warned those around him to not push their luck, to listen as he spoke and do what he asked. And they did. They moved along, one after the other as he pointed to the weapon racks, putting their weapons down with grace and respect that had been instilled right from the start.
Opal smiled, covering it quickly with her hand as she turned away from the kids and towards the centre of the training area. It had almost become custom for the two of them to wrap up their days by sparring, a different weapon each day as they kept their own skills sharp. It was important to not look weak or incapable in front of their students and as much as Opal longed to never hold a sword or any other weapon again, she knew they’d follow her to her grave. Hell, she’d not be surprised if she was buried with one in her grasp.
It made her think of Katelyn, of the poisoned freedom afforded to other districts. She hated it, hated the way she resented the blood-stained children she was forced to raise, but hated that the lamb eyed, innocent ones raised in other districts were sent to slaughter. It was a double-edged blade, one that took from your own flesh as much as it strengthened. No child came out of their reaping years feeling as if they had been able to live with freedom. Their lives were ruled by their parent’s desire for glory or a desperate need to protect their child from a quick death should they get reaped.
She turned to face Ky as he made his way over, Opal stood on the balls of her feet, knowing that their fight would commence at any moment. “I’m proud of you, Ky,” she spoke softly, fingers loose around the hilt of her sword. “You’re strong and gentle, you get the kids to listen to you, and they trust you. There aren’t many instructors who command that kind of respect.”
There would always be a seed of guilt burning within the pit of her stomach, wondering if she could have done more or done better to stop Ky from having to be raised this way. She drew short of a response every time, knowing that there was a single one- the only correct one, attached to her like a blade in her back. She could have protected him by never having him. It was a simple reality of every child’s life within Panem, none had chosen to be born, all were forced to suffer because of the selfishness of their parents.
She wondered if Ky would ever have children, or if he’d be stronger than she was.