what it means to be strong.— [six/bubby]
Jun 9, 2021 20:36:33 GMT -5
Post by Deleted on Jun 9, 2021 20:36:33 GMT -5
This took a lot of bravery that Six didn't even know that he had and he wasn't sure if he would be able to go through with it. What was he doing? Standing outside the door of Bubby Caro. The guy from district four. He had just seen his reaping video and it really struck something in Six. The tears, the look of heartbreak on his face. Bubby was expecting someone to do something and they didn't. Not only was his life ripped away from him that day, his heart was torn to pieces. Six understood that. He sort of felt the same way. He didn't show it on the stage, but as soon as he entered the justice building he began to sob. Then he fell to his knees and he prayed. Six O'Malley was from a religious family, but he was starting to stop believing in God. But that day he didn't know what else to do.
Then there were the visits with his family. Well, the two that they let him have. The other sixteen members of his family never even got a goodbye. He wasn't sure what hurt more, not getting to say goodbye or how his conversation with Lock went. With Fly it was pretty standard. He had to pretend everything was going to be okay to make his little sister feel better. He had to tell her that he was her big brother and he'd be okay. That he'd come back. Then there was Lock. Lock was his older brother by a year. And their conversation? Cut short. His guess was was that the peacekeepers guarding the door overheard him. He cried and Lock held him. But then he whispered to Lock if he thought that Six should try to make a run for it. They must have overheard.
Because what happened next was something that Six would never be able to wipe from his memories. The peacekeepers said it was time to go, but the boys refused. They held onto each other for dear life as they were ripped apart. One dragged Six out of the room as he screamed Locks name. Lock tried to go after his brother and ended up pinned to the ground. But a selfish part of Six wished that Lock was able to do something to stop them. A selfish part of Six wished that Lock did a distraction so he could escape. He knew he wouldn't want that to happen. He hated seeing his brother get hurt by the peacekeepers due to a simple pin and would never forgive himself if Lock got hurt worse because of him. He just was having trouble accepting his fate. He was sure Bubby was too. That's why he wanted to talk to him. He was tired of pretending to be brave. Pretending to be strong. Pretending that he didn't want to cry. And he was sure that Bubby was tired too.
That's when Six summoned up all of the courage and strength he could muster and knocked twice. Just twice. Part of him hoped he wasn't in there. That he was training or eating. He didn't think this kid was a career, but the upper districts still intimidated him. It felt like a separate world than district eleven. He felt almost like he was worth less than those from the upper districts because he was from eleven. It's probably because his whole life he was basically told by the capitol that he was worth less than them. How can you say that their lives are worth equal amounts when the upper districts get full stomachs every night? How can you say they're equal when some people in the upper districts don't even have to work and him and his fourteen siblings farmed from sunrise to sunset? He knew not to hold it against them though. He just figured that there was something inherently wrong with him. Maybe he was a sinner in his past life and living in district eleven and being reaped were his punishments.
Then, Bubby opened the door. Six just stared at him for a moment. He actually answered. For a moment Six felt like Icarus, was talking to someone like Bubby about something so personal flying too close to the sun? Was he going to burn up? Well now it was too late to change course. He was already here and Bubba had already answered. He cleared his throat before speaking. When he did speak his voice was soft, quiet. It was almost like a ghost speaking - though he would probably be a ghost soon. For even if he won, he'd just be a ghost of his former self. He didn't bother trying to look confident or brave or even forcing a smile. For the first time since he arrived here Six showed his true self as he spoke. A scared fifteen year old boy.
"You're uh Bubba right? I'm Six O'Malley from district eleven. I was hoping we could talk, if that's okay with you?"
Then there were the visits with his family. Well, the two that they let him have. The other sixteen members of his family never even got a goodbye. He wasn't sure what hurt more, not getting to say goodbye or how his conversation with Lock went. With Fly it was pretty standard. He had to pretend everything was going to be okay to make his little sister feel better. He had to tell her that he was her big brother and he'd be okay. That he'd come back. Then there was Lock. Lock was his older brother by a year. And their conversation? Cut short. His guess was was that the peacekeepers guarding the door overheard him. He cried and Lock held him. But then he whispered to Lock if he thought that Six should try to make a run for it. They must have overheard.
Because what happened next was something that Six would never be able to wipe from his memories. The peacekeepers said it was time to go, but the boys refused. They held onto each other for dear life as they were ripped apart. One dragged Six out of the room as he screamed Locks name. Lock tried to go after his brother and ended up pinned to the ground. But a selfish part of Six wished that Lock was able to do something to stop them. A selfish part of Six wished that Lock did a distraction so he could escape. He knew he wouldn't want that to happen. He hated seeing his brother get hurt by the peacekeepers due to a simple pin and would never forgive himself if Lock got hurt worse because of him. He just was having trouble accepting his fate. He was sure Bubby was too. That's why he wanted to talk to him. He was tired of pretending to be brave. Pretending to be strong. Pretending that he didn't want to cry. And he was sure that Bubby was tired too.
That's when Six summoned up all of the courage and strength he could muster and knocked twice. Just twice. Part of him hoped he wasn't in there. That he was training or eating. He didn't think this kid was a career, but the upper districts still intimidated him. It felt like a separate world than district eleven. He felt almost like he was worth less than those from the upper districts because he was from eleven. It's probably because his whole life he was basically told by the capitol that he was worth less than them. How can you say that their lives are worth equal amounts when the upper districts get full stomachs every night? How can you say they're equal when some people in the upper districts don't even have to work and him and his fourteen siblings farmed from sunrise to sunset? He knew not to hold it against them though. He just figured that there was something inherently wrong with him. Maybe he was a sinner in his past life and living in district eleven and being reaped were his punishments.
Then, Bubby opened the door. Six just stared at him for a moment. He actually answered. For a moment Six felt like Icarus, was talking to someone like Bubby about something so personal flying too close to the sun? Was he going to burn up? Well now it was too late to change course. He was already here and Bubba had already answered. He cleared his throat before speaking. When he did speak his voice was soft, quiet. It was almost like a ghost speaking - though he would probably be a ghost soon. For even if he won, he'd just be a ghost of his former self. He didn't bother trying to look confident or brave or even forcing a smile. For the first time since he arrived here Six showed his true self as he spoke. A scared fifteen year old boy.
"You're uh Bubba right? I'm Six O'Malley from district eleven. I was hoping we could talk, if that's okay with you?"