highs and lows.— [alex/harmon]
Jul 12, 2021 15:25:54 GMT -5
Post by Deleted on Jul 12, 2021 15:25:54 GMT -5
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It was a cure for my worries - and for my loneliness. My friends haven't wanted to hang out as much ever since Thad got reaped, they said the whole thing is kind of a bummer. I've tried to fake being happy, like nothings wrong, but they can tell it's just not the same. But today, one of my friends had a solution. If I got high, the whole situation wouldn't be near as bad.
I saw his point. If I was high, I would be more relaxed. And maybe I would forget about Thad fighting for his life, just for a little while. I was a bit nervous. I've never done anything like this before. But, what was the worst that could happen? If my parents found out, they'd understand I only did it because I missed Thad, right?
I told him I'd try it. And he was right. I felt a whole lot better, like I was floating on air. I saw why Harmon liked doing this stuff so much. Especially with Thad gone. But, there was an issue. His parents would be coming home soon and so we all had to leave. My friends walked me back to my house, saying they didn't think I could find it on my own. They were probably right, I couldn't think about anything without having to fight a thick fog.
Once I got home and got inside, I saw Harmon sitting on the couch. I wanted to go talk to him, but I was super hungry first. So I went into the kitchen and grabbed the first snack food I could think of - leftover cookies that Quinn brought over. I took the whole plate before going back to the living room, plopping on the couch next to Harmon.
I wasn't even thinking about the fact I still smelled heavily of pot, but maybe if he was high he wouldn't even notice it. Though the way I munched on the cookies, gobbling them down in as few bites as possible, might have given away the truth. I was snuggling into the couch, curling up my body and rubbing my head against it like it was the softest couch in the world. As I spoke, I didn't bother making sure there wasn't food in my mouth first. Hey, I was hungry.
"...Haaarmoon. Whatcha doin' out here? What'sss goin' on?"
There was a delay going from my brain to my mouth. In my head my words sounded normal. But outloud? Spoken there was a pause before each thought and many of the words were either drawn out or cut short. This was my first high, so I was having trouble functioning under it as I shoved yet another cookie into my mouth. After asking Harmon about what was going on, I let out a loud yawn.
I remember my friend saying that the weed would relax me, but also make me tired. And the tiredness was now hitting me. I felt like I had just woken up from a nap or ate a big meal and got stuffed. I went from snuggling with the couch to using Harmon as a pillow, leaning my head into his arm and shoulder. I didn't realize how bad this looked from a "I'm not high I swear" perspective. Looking back, I'm grateful it was Harmon on that couch instead of Sammy or Larry.
alexander ‘alex’ pepperwood
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